Today is my birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE :)
The first hour of my birthday:
At 12am sharp my husband serenaded me with the sweetest happy birthday song and then guided me into our living room where he made me read a beautiful handwritten letter from him followed by a scavenger hunt he put together! I never did a scavenger hunt before so I was sooo excited! After each clue there was a gift for me which made my little Jamaican heart explode because my love language is receiving gifts.
The final gift was a beautiful Chanel bag.
Chanel is my favorite designer brand and he knows it. He's making it a habit of gifting me Chanel at this point because he know's how happy it makes me. First it was a gorgeous pair of velvety black heels and now a beautiful dainty bag. Ty if you're reading this [ I know you are ;) ] I LOVE YOU BABY!
Thoughts and how I'm feeling- Free write:
This is the first time in days that I've actually felt this at peace with myself. I thank God because it's been rough. This morning my husband prayed for me and then we prayed together. And as he prayed for blessings and favor over my life I could feel each and every word really working their way through my soul.
For a while I was feeling very confused-- like I had no direction. The pandemic is really what started it. Being an actor, who also does a million other things can cause a sense of lost direction. Y'know? The enemy really tried to plant seeds of doubt and fear in my mind but GOD! While I sat up late one night trying to dissect my life, what it is I want to do and how to get it done I quickly realized that I was forgetting to do the most important thing. I was forgetting to talk to God about it! Whew. And in that very moment the bible verse my sister always says to me popped up in my head, "Seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these things will be added to you."
As I repeated those words over and over again, I finally managed to fall asleep.
Now I have a new mindset and as I walk into this 27th year of life, I pray this mindset doesn't leave me.
I will always have a million things I want to do. I have a very adventurous spirit-- I'm a Sagittarius, what can I say lol BUT the difference now is that I will be reminding myself every chance I get to seek God first. I know better than to try and do anything without Him. Whenever I go out and try to make a bunch of decisions without consulting Him first I always end up lost and confused. Oh Lord, forgive me.
This new year is all about seeking God first, and putting every single bit of my faith in Him. When it comes to every decision I make for myself, with my husband, family and friends. I have to put God first.
I hope this encourages you, whoever finds this, to do the same.
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